Total silence. Sitting in our 3rd home in 14 months. Kids just took off to serve with the youth at church. Brent is at meetings. I’m sitting in this new town, in a new living room, with total silence.
I try to arrange some sort of focused thought. Any topic, I don’t care much, just a thought. And, nothing.
I get frustrated. I start coming down on myself. Tam, where are your passions? What happened to them? Where is your creativity? What happened to it? Where is your sense of adventure? Where did it go?
Calm down. It’s all there. Somewhere.
I realize I need to cut myself some slack. We’ve been on quite the journey lately. I barely even know my left from my right these days.
So, I’m going to give myself permission to just sit for a minute. To not feel I have to think about anything specific or world changing…just for a minute.
I am going to sit here in the quiet and lean my ear into the breath of God. I know it is from Him that my mind and thoughts need to be re-filled again.
When is the last time you’ve given yourself permission to just…be?
Be still and know that He is God…