Aug 20

August 20, 2014

So This Is How It Ends

  I’m a thin girl. But thin does not always equate to healthy. People tell me “You’re so thin.” “You’re in great shape for your age.” :/ To which I almost always respond…”I look like a crime scene naked.” Then we laugh and laugh and ha and ha and then I’m like really, don’t make me prove it to you. This week I started working out for the first time in 4 years. I don’t have one good reason for why I…

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Aug 17

August 17, 2014

23 Years But I’m Still Funnier

This man. I met him in June of 1990. We began dating in August, 1990. We were engaged on October 10, 1990. We got married August 18, 1991. We don’t play around. I met Brent a few weeks after my first husband took his life. I had absolutely no intention of even entertaining the thought of relationships. I was traumatized and numb. But, I also met someone else just weeks after my husbands suicide… God. I came face to face…

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Aug 13

August 13, 2014

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The Root Of The Pain

This is my face today. It hurts. Like, my whole face hurts. Like, deep into the center of my face, which I suppose is near my brain/skull area…I’m no doctor. But, ouch.   I’ve had my braces on for almost 11 months now. This week I got a couple brackets repositioned and the pain it caused was off the charts. I mean, I delivered both my children without any drugs and I think moving the brackets hurt more. While sitting…

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Aug 11

August 11, 2014

It’s In The Eyes

I battled depression after each of my children were born. Postpartum Depression is what the professionals called it. I called it the effect of my hearts condition. You see…I had aborted two babies before I had my two children that live now today. Their lives reminded me of the lives I ended. Depression followed quickly. The black hole of emotions. The sinking feeling of impending doom. The “you don’t deserve the air you breathe” moments. And until the very second…

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Aug 10

August 10, 2014

The Evolving Family

  I was talking with a good friend at church recently about the stage of life he and his wife are in with their young kids and the decisions they have to make that effect their children and their mom and dad hearts. I was taken back to when my kids were their children’s ages. Some days I felt like I did well just to survive. Other days I felt like I did well if they survived. I started thinking then…

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Aug 4

August 4, 2014

I’ve forgotten my thoughts

Sometimes I get so preoccupied with reading the thoughts of others that I forget to have thoughts of my own. Do you ever wonder how much social media has effected your life? How much it has influenced you? I’m positive I wouldn’t be where I am today without social media…no, the people of social media. Our family is in Nashville, in part, because of relationships that were built way back in 2007 from blogging. There is so much about it…

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Jul 30

July 30, 2014

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Please stop this.

When giving a compliment to someone for what they’ve just done and their response is… “It was all God!” no. God would’ve done much better. But you… you did a great job. No more false humility, people. Just say thank you. Receive the compliment. Don’t feel bad…God knows your heart. Yah, I don’t think when we simply say a kind thank you that God is stomping off in anger because we didn’t say it was actually all him. My kids are super duper…

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Jul 29

July 29, 2014

Because Things Rarely Go As Planned

If you follow me on instagram, twitter, or FB, you might remember about a couple months ago I shared that my manuscript had finally been submitted. Oh my heart…what an exciting moment that was! And, oh my woah, how much things have changed since that day. My plan all along has been to self-publish my book. Ten years ago when I heard God tell me in the shower (I hear him best in there) “Tam, write your story – share…

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Jul 26

July 26, 2014

I Can’t Blame My Ovaries

Some days, I just feel like crying. It’s true. I’m generally a pretty jovial, even keel, gal. I’m super slow to anger. I just take life as it comes to me – one moment at a time. But Saturday morning, it took everything I had within me not to cry. It started the second my feet hit the floor that morning. Not one particular thing set it off. It was just a feeling in my chest, my gut, and my…

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Jul 24

July 24, 2014

Cardy And Her Littles

Part of the deck at the back of our home was converted into a sunroom. It’s a spot I enjoy to sit in as often as I can. There are no walls…just windows. Currently the yard is a shade of green that takes my breath away each day. The blooms are vibrant and the bees are plenty. Just under the back windows of our sunroom are several rose bushes. Now, I like receiving roses but I do not like growing…

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